So a week later, Christina, Jed, and I headed to Justin's for a dinner party. We got there on the last bus and Justin made us fresh mussels and we had fresh chocolate and strawberries. Then we took a walk and decided to go to the club La Bama. The catch is that La Bama is a 25 minute walk or a 5 minute car ride. So we hitchhiked. This is something that I would never attempt in America, but is apparently done all the time in southern France. So, we got there and danced to crazy techno music, for a while and then got a ride back to Justin's in a tiny car with two guys and a dog.
The next day we had pizza from the African Queen. She is this interesting older French woman who has a tiny place in St. Affrique (St. Aff). She lived in Israel for a while where she learned Hebrew and met her husband. They moved back to France and now they have this little restaurant shop where you can order homemade food to go. We waited about 30 minutes for 2 pizzas, which were delicious, and were offered tea and conversation while we were waiting. The African Queen, as the woman is locally known, told us a little about herself and also about St. Aff. She said that it's a good place because it used to be a larger place and then started to die. About 5 years ago it was only 4000 people, and now it is growing again. She said it isn't like France at all; there are people from all over France and an international population as well. All in all, I think I like St. Aff more than Millau. It helps that Justin lives right in the middle of this small town, so nothing was ever more than 5 minutes away.
Anyway, Christina and Jed left for Millau Sunday night and I stayed with Justin until Wednesday morning. It was at this point when we all realized that my birthday was Monday; I decided to stay anyway because I wanted to attend Justin's classes with him. I love traveling because you always meet the most interesting people and become instant friends because of sharing a language. Justin took me to all of his classes with him on Monday and Tuesday; he does all of his hours in the first two days of the week which keeps the rest of the week open for traveling. We drank tea on our breaks and bobbed in and out of the rooms for times varying from 20 to 45 minutes, depending on the age of the students, which vary from 5-11. I participated in all of the classes and had a great time with the students and the lessons. The last lessons we did on Tuesday consisted of drawing monsters. I would say to the class in enlish, "The monster has 5 feet," then the kids would deconstruct the sentence and Justin would help them in French if they needed it. It was super fun to watch the kids get excited to draw, understand what I was saying, and then get upset because the monster had 5 feet and three legs. They just couldn't figure this out, no matter how many times we explained it to them.
Then, for my birthday we got a bottle of wine, a bottle of champagne and Justin made us omellettes. We got pastries from the bakery for "cake" and they were chocolatey and delicious. On Tuesday, we basically repeated Monday. We had a really fun time hanging out and talking and walking around St. Aff. I can't belive that I am 27, but I had a lovely birthday, and am looking forward to this coming up weekend when Christina and I will celebrate our birthdays (hers in March 23) together in Montpellier.
21.3.07
A weekend in Nimes
I met Christina's friend Justin, who is teaching in St. Affrique, the first weekend we came to Millau. We hung out for about 20 minutes before we had to head back to Millau and he mentioned going to Nimes in few couple of weeks and wanting someone to travel with. I told him I might be interested. He came to Millau a couple of weeks later and stayed the weekend, and we decided to go for sure. I met him at the bus station in Millau at 7:30 am, he coming in from St. Aff and then we took the bus to Montpellier. We ate chocolate crepes and had coffe and then we wandered around the shopping district before we caught our train to Nimes. We walked out of the train station into a beautiful spring day and straight up to the Arena, which looks like a smaller version of the colloseum and where they still have bullfights. Though we had no solid plans of what to see or where to stay, everything just fell into place. We went to the tourism office and on the way came across the Roman ruins that makes Nimes a place to visit. It looked simultaneously huge and too small for the space in it was in. I will attach pictures later when I can use my own computer...
Anyway, we got the directions to the hostel where we could stay for 15 euro a night and a 40 minute walk from the center. Then we found a cafe to eat lunch outside. We sat there for a couple of hours and ate salad and drank wine. We decided to walk around and check out the local hotel scene. We found a one star hotel (they mark everything by stars here on the signs) and it was 35 euro a night for two, so we took it. It was just a couple blocks away from the colliseum, so we came out great on that one. Then we wandered about for a bit and came across the Roman gardens. There were a bunch of white statues and a pond and some stairs built into the hill at the end. We wandered about and took some pictures and then headed back to the center for dinner. We ate pizza and I tried a traditional French apertif, cassis with kir. Then we went to a bar for gin and tonic and found the first of many glow sticks from the night. We found one gay bar where we found more glow sticks, and had champagne; then we hit a club like place which was tightly packed. This place had a monitor in the front room showing the back room where there is supposed to be dancing; all we saw was a bunch of people standing still. We wandered from bar to bar, just to check things out, and noticed how many highschool students and middle aged people were out and about. I guess most of the people our age live in other places, like Montpellier.
The next day, we slept in and then found ourselves a good French breakfast of coffee (the only time I've had coffee in large cups in France by the way) baguette and jam and croissants. It was great. Then we went walking to find the tower that was one Justin's photocopied page of the town. We found a little park entrance that we decided to take a detour through. After a rambling park walk of about 20 minutes, it led us straight to the tower. All in the all weekend worked like this the whole time, things just falling into place. Then we had a leisurely lunch of crepes and red wine (a theme of my southern France experience) and finished with a glass of champagne.
The train back to Montpellier left us just enough time to catch our bus. So we go wait for the bus and then try and get on it, and the guy is like, no you can't get on this bus, this is a private bus. So we go back to the train station and the lady is like, it wasn't a bus, it was a train, and you missed it. But you can catch the next bus. So, we wandered around Montpellier a while and got to the bus station just as the bus was pulling away. We flagged it down and just barely made it back to Millau by midnight.
Anyway, we got the directions to the hostel where we could stay for 15 euro a night and a 40 minute walk from the center. Then we found a cafe to eat lunch outside. We sat there for a couple of hours and ate salad and drank wine. We decided to walk around and check out the local hotel scene. We found a one star hotel (they mark everything by stars here on the signs) and it was 35 euro a night for two, so we took it. It was just a couple blocks away from the colliseum, so we came out great on that one. Then we wandered about for a bit and came across the Roman gardens. There were a bunch of white statues and a pond and some stairs built into the hill at the end. We wandered about and took some pictures and then headed back to the center for dinner. We ate pizza and I tried a traditional French apertif, cassis with kir. Then we went to a bar for gin and tonic and found the first of many glow sticks from the night. We found one gay bar where we found more glow sticks, and had champagne; then we hit a club like place which was tightly packed. This place had a monitor in the front room showing the back room where there is supposed to be dancing; all we saw was a bunch of people standing still. We wandered from bar to bar, just to check things out, and noticed how many highschool students and middle aged people were out and about. I guess most of the people our age live in other places, like Montpellier.
The next day, we slept in and then found ourselves a good French breakfast of coffee (the only time I've had coffee in large cups in France by the way) baguette and jam and croissants. It was great. Then we went walking to find the tower that was one Justin's photocopied page of the town. We found a little park entrance that we decided to take a detour through. After a rambling park walk of about 20 minutes, it led us straight to the tower. All in the all weekend worked like this the whole time, things just falling into place. Then we had a leisurely lunch of crepes and red wine (a theme of my southern France experience) and finished with a glass of champagne.
The train back to Montpellier left us just enough time to catch our bus. So we go wait for the bus and then try and get on it, and the guy is like, no you can't get on this bus, this is a private bus. So we go back to the train station and the lady is like, it wasn't a bus, it was a train, and you missed it. But you can catch the next bus. So, we wandered around Montpellier a while and got to the bus station just as the bus was pulling away. We flagged it down and just barely made it back to Millau by midnight.
16.3.07
Mr. Vincent is cleaning the pool
I have easily settled into Millau. Our little chalet porch overlooks the only gym in Millau, which is run by Mr. Vincent, who also owns the chalets. He is an intersting little man with eighties permed and frosted hair, full of gel and somehow still a little frizzy. We can always hear it when he teaches aerobics, because the bad eighties music gets loud enought to drift through our usually open front door. Whenever he sees us sitting outdoors, he comes out and greet us in French, then for my and Jed's benefit adds in English, France is good, no? It is, we agree.
Millau is a compact city and everything radiates out from the Village Centre, which is marked by the giant water fountain that comes on around 9 am. All the red rooved buildings are settled into the valley and up on the fills around it, and the road out heads straight under the Viaduct. In the evening sunset it would make a great ending to a French Western. Do the French have Western movies? I don't know, I gave up on French TV shortly after my dive into French Wheel of Fortune.
All the women here, and most of the men, walk the streets with prams. According to French Glamour all the women who don't already have babies by the time they are 35 will have them afterwards for sure. Crossing the street can be tricky business, because one is so easily disctracted by cute small children that there isn't always time to look for oncoming traffic. This may actually work to my benefit because you need a great deal of confidence to cross the streets. They don't have stop signs and rarely have signals. There are roundabouts instead, and if you want to cross the best thing to do is step out into the street and hope the drivers will stop for you. I haven't made up my mind yet, but the overall consensus as far as I can tell is that the French are good drivers (translation: good brakers) and though they drive fast, they also stop fast so pedestrians aren't usually in danger. Justin says the key is making eye contact; I guess the idea is that if they acknowledge your presence they cannot in good conscience pretend they didn't see you and then run you down.
There are bakeries and butcher shops everywhere, though the idea of the "super store" is becoming more common. More and more western style stores with everything available are around, like Super U and Spar. Yesterday, we ventured out to Geant which is a sad little mini-mall like place with two cheap shoe stores, only one of which was opened, a cheap clothing store, closed for renovation, and two giant and cheap supermarkets. I guess I prefer the Super U at first, and the market second.
Jed and I went to the market the other day and it was lovely. Besides being a beautiful sunny day, we wandered through the closed streets and watched all the people buying meat, fruit and bread for the next few day's of meals. Market it three days a week. The sidewalk we came down to walk into it went past a long row of interesting and delicious looking breads, but not before we passed a trailer full of raw meat. I looked over just in time to see the proprietor swinging two dead and skinned rabbits up onto the scale. I don't want to say that they were bloody, but they were certainly freshly dead and quite red. I think it may have scarred me; I can't fully explain how, because fresh meat is better than frozen, but I don't want to eat rabbit and besides that it was just gross.
The days here alternate between slightly cloudy but warm and super warm with endless blue, unbroken by so much as a wisp of clouds. There are hanggliders over the cliff daily, and to top it all off, Mr. Vincent is cleaning the pool. Spring is afoot.
Millau is a compact city and everything radiates out from the Village Centre, which is marked by the giant water fountain that comes on around 9 am. All the red rooved buildings are settled into the valley and up on the fills around it, and the road out heads straight under the Viaduct. In the evening sunset it would make a great ending to a French Western. Do the French have Western movies? I don't know, I gave up on French TV shortly after my dive into French Wheel of Fortune.
All the women here, and most of the men, walk the streets with prams. According to French Glamour all the women who don't already have babies by the time they are 35 will have them afterwards for sure. Crossing the street can be tricky business, because one is so easily disctracted by cute small children that there isn't always time to look for oncoming traffic. This may actually work to my benefit because you need a great deal of confidence to cross the streets. They don't have stop signs and rarely have signals. There are roundabouts instead, and if you want to cross the best thing to do is step out into the street and hope the drivers will stop for you. I haven't made up my mind yet, but the overall consensus as far as I can tell is that the French are good drivers (translation: good brakers) and though they drive fast, they also stop fast so pedestrians aren't usually in danger. Justin says the key is making eye contact; I guess the idea is that if they acknowledge your presence they cannot in good conscience pretend they didn't see you and then run you down.
There are bakeries and butcher shops everywhere, though the idea of the "super store" is becoming more common. More and more western style stores with everything available are around, like Super U and Spar. Yesterday, we ventured out to Geant which is a sad little mini-mall like place with two cheap shoe stores, only one of which was opened, a cheap clothing store, closed for renovation, and two giant and cheap supermarkets. I guess I prefer the Super U at first, and the market second.
Jed and I went to the market the other day and it was lovely. Besides being a beautiful sunny day, we wandered through the closed streets and watched all the people buying meat, fruit and bread for the next few day's of meals. Market it three days a week. The sidewalk we came down to walk into it went past a long row of interesting and delicious looking breads, but not before we passed a trailer full of raw meat. I looked over just in time to see the proprietor swinging two dead and skinned rabbits up onto the scale. I don't want to say that they were bloody, but they were certainly freshly dead and quite red. I think it may have scarred me; I can't fully explain how, because fresh meat is better than frozen, but I don't want to eat rabbit and besides that it was just gross.
The days here alternate between slightly cloudy but warm and super warm with endless blue, unbroken by so much as a wisp of clouds. There are hanggliders over the cliff daily, and to top it all off, Mr. Vincent is cleaning the pool. Spring is afoot.
7.3.07
La Roue de la Fortune
Does watching tv still count as bad for you if you can't understand any of it? Last week I put the tv on for some background noise and to give my computer speakers a break. I watched about 15 minutes of the Tom Hanks movie Cast Away, dubbed in French. Then I was watching a French game show, thinking that with sentences outside of dialogue I may have a better idea of getting some words out of it. Of course, only knowing the French words for hello, goodbye, and the check please, it has turned out be quite unlikely that I will learn any words from watching TV. After giving up on the game show, I was channel surfing the 5 French channels that we get here in the chalet and I came across Will and Grace dubbed in French. Never being a huge fan of the show, it is possible I have seen this episode before, but I still had no idea what was happening. I am wondering if the laugh track is also re-dubbed in to better match the french version of the dialogue. I didn't watch any TV in Russia, but Dana said that the dubbing is really bad, often over top of the English which can still be heard. The French obviously have more time or money, because everything I have seen thus far has been dubbed very well. I guess this episode is pretty funny too, because there is much laughter; it's lost on me though.
So tonight, after losing Jed (leaving Jed, depending on who you ask), Christina and I came back to the chalet after a short stop at the Super U for groceries and wanting to watch a movie, had to settle for French television. I found Veronica Mars, which is kind of a guilty pleasure for me because it comes on after the Gilmore Girls on the WB, and so I started watching it, but soon got bored because I couldn't follow in French. So, I turned the channel and found French Wheel of Fortune. I was kind of excited, because for some reason I think that if the words are up on a board that I will be able to read and then understand them, even in French. Plus, I am a Wheel of Fortune fan from way back. So we are watching the 'French Vanna White' and decide that is like a California tan Pamela Anderson version of Vanna White, and then while talking in French to 'Pat' we hear say something in English; it was a quick phrase but I didn't detect an accent, so now I am intrigued. I google French Wheel of Fortune and after following a line from Google to Wikipedia I find out that she has her own website. She is a Swedish super-model who was once on the Swedish Olympic ski team and then was Miss Sweden in the the Miss World pageant in South Africa in the mid-nineties. She was picked up as a high fashion model in Paris, and while trying to break into acting, she has extended herself into the world of game shows. What you can't learn on the internet...
Also, Wheel of Fortune is just one example of how French tv is one big dance party. After one round, they began playing this famous french pop song that was the subject of one of the rounds and pretty soon 'Vanna' and the contestants are all dancing on the stage. It was madness, especially since, as Christina points out, though the French love to dance, they suck at it. Last week we watched this crazy music special on Friday night with all the really present famous French singers. It was on for like three hours, and each song had it's own theme complete with sets and costumes. It was supremely weird, but also supremely entertaining, and the highlight of the night was when the French sang, in English, the Bryan Adams song Everything I Do and a rockin' version of The Arrow's I Love Rock and Roll, complete with goth makeup and Victorian dresses. The rain makes want to hate this country, but the crazy music makes me love it. (By the way, in case you were worried, Jed turned up and is in tact and just fine; he even had a kebab.)
So tonight, after losing Jed (leaving Jed, depending on who you ask), Christina and I came back to the chalet after a short stop at the Super U for groceries and wanting to watch a movie, had to settle for French television. I found Veronica Mars, which is kind of a guilty pleasure for me because it comes on after the Gilmore Girls on the WB, and so I started watching it, but soon got bored because I couldn't follow in French. So, I turned the channel and found French Wheel of Fortune. I was kind of excited, because for some reason I think that if the words are up on a board that I will be able to read and then understand them, even in French. Plus, I am a Wheel of Fortune fan from way back. So we are watching the 'French Vanna White' and decide that is like a California tan Pamela Anderson version of Vanna White, and then while talking in French to 'Pat' we hear say something in English; it was a quick phrase but I didn't detect an accent, so now I am intrigued. I google French Wheel of Fortune and after following a line from Google to Wikipedia I find out that she has her own website. She is a Swedish super-model who was once on the Swedish Olympic ski team and then was Miss Sweden in the the Miss World pageant in South Africa in the mid-nineties. She was picked up as a high fashion model in Paris, and while trying to break into acting, she has extended herself into the world of game shows. What you can't learn on the internet...
Also, Wheel of Fortune is just one example of how French tv is one big dance party. After one round, they began playing this famous french pop song that was the subject of one of the rounds and pretty soon 'Vanna' and the contestants are all dancing on the stage. It was madness, especially since, as Christina points out, though the French love to dance, they suck at it. Last week we watched this crazy music special on Friday night with all the really present famous French singers. It was on for like three hours, and each song had it's own theme complete with sets and costumes. It was supremely weird, but also supremely entertaining, and the highlight of the night was when the French sang, in English, the Bryan Adams song Everything I Do and a rockin' version of The Arrow's I Love Rock and Roll, complete with goth makeup and Victorian dresses. The rain makes want to hate this country, but the crazy music makes me love it. (By the way, in case you were worried, Jed turned up and is in tact and just fine; he even had a kebab.)
Where I live...
This is the front porch of the chalet; and notice the French bike. Below is the view of the Viaduct from just behind the Super U.
26.2.07
Life in France
The chalet is situated just below the highway that runs through these parts. The chalet itself is part of a group of little cabins that are meant more as vacation spots than regular apartments, and the 'road' that they are on, which is really a walking path, is called Montana. So we live at 315 Montana; this seems appropriate since we are three Montanans living in France. (Me, my best friend Christina from Bozeman, and her boyfriend from Eureka.) There is a wonderful view of the whole city just below it extending back into the mountains on the other side and the cliffs that border Millau on the right side. Far to the left is the Viaduct, which is visible from just about everywhere in town. In the middle of town are these bizarrely gnarly trees that probably look like totally normal trees in summer but right now just look like something out of a stylized horror film. We went to Roquefort, where they make the cheese and age it in caves-I personally think this cheese tasted rancid. There are these giant posters of butterflys everywhere and you are supposed to follow the butterfly, which if you look closely is made of roquefort cheese, to the caves.
They were closed when we found them, but the countryside was pretty.
Then we went to St. Afrique (pop. approx 7000) last week to visit one of Christina's fellow assistants, and friend Justin (Ohio, 22). (Roquefort, Millau, and St. Afrique are all within 30 minutes of each other, so this was easily achieved because we still had the Super U car at this point...) After getting the grand tour (consisting of 5 minutes and the church - not a cathedral, just a church) Justin commented on a French park on the 'main drag' (St. Afrique is very small, so I use the term main drag loosely) and how the French really keep everything really manicured because they really like to try and control nature. I must also point out at this time that this tendency seems to mostly apply to large trees, because this French park, 'like most French parks,' had no grass.
Justin came and stayed with us last weekend here in Millau. He is the only assistant, and only American, in St. Afrique, so needless to say, he was happy to hang out with us. We all had dinner then went out and drank some beer. We didn't get back to the chalet until 4am (I was shocked by the time) and then Justin and I stayed up talking until 6 am. He is 22, from Ohio, and I pretty much love him. Justin and I walked back from town together on Saturday together, discussed the celebrities we saw in Chrisitna's French Glamour magazines, and talked about books and philosophy. I love this whole traveling thing, because everywhere I go I stay up late at night like I am back in college and discuss current events, global politics, philosophy, and the endlessly entertaining world of famous people. Dana and I did it about language and culture shock; Dana's friend Kostya and I did it about history and Russia in general; Dana, her friend Maxim (who was kind enough to put us up a couple of time in Moscow at his apartment) did it about Russia and the world economy and our generation's place in it; and Christina and Jed and I have had some of the same conversations, revolving around history, the American economy, the English language, and how much we love creme fraise (French sour cream). Anyway, we were all pretty tired on Sunday, and it was the only truly nice we've had so we went to the park (which has free wi-fi) and played on the internet and read some more bad magazines in French.
This weekend I am going to go to Nimes (Neme) with Justin and maybe Christina and Jed also. It should be cheap, and I am looking forward to it.
25.2.07
How is water so many different colors?
I was walking to the Super U tonight to buy a couple of things for dinner. But rounding the corner and coming over the hill, I noticed that the giant U was not lit up in its bright red Super U glory, nor were there any cars in the parking lot. Alas, the Super U was closed because I forgot that it is Sunday in Europe. Much like the two hour lunches and how things close at 8 pm on a normal day anyway, I am once again reminded that I am in a foreign land, and I am spoiled by living in America. Spoiled by having access to whatever I want at almost any time of day, and also in thinking that it I should have that access.
(Which brings me to a quick comment about Wal-Mart. I know that we all have our own opinions about Wal-Mart; many of us hate it as one of the big box stores which is no good for independent business, and most of us shop there anyway. I would just like to point out that Wal-Mart exists as a by-product of our economic system, one which allows competition and supplies a demand in product, cost, and time. While there are obvious draw backs to the big box store model, it exists because of our economic system, which I will stand by as one of the best in the world. I mean who wants to buy underwear outside in the winter?)
Anyway, instead of turning around, or even being disappointed, I walked a little bit further to the bridge that crosses into Millau proper and down to the river bank. In the misty, foggy, evening, I was staring at the water amazed that it is yet another color of water I have come across. Is it the day, the time, the fog? I don't know, but the more-blue-then-green teal color of the water had me staring at it for a while. I am attaching a picture, but unfortunately the evening darkness effects the coloring in the photo, and even photoshopped it doesn't come out quite right. (Also, my camera seems to be on the fritz...as soon as it dies that is every single that I brought me, broken or gone; it's amazing what you think you need that ou don't really...)
Millau is a little smaller than Bozeman in population. The buildings are all a pinky tan color, with mostly red rooves dotting the densely built skyline from our view here on the hill overlooking the town. With the fresh, wet, green of this early and rainy spring, Millau is certainly a better place to be than Russia or Montana (if only for weather). Most of the cars stop for me as a pedestrian, but I wonder if they can tell by looking at me, or perhaps just because I am walking where they are driving, that I am a foreigner, an American. I imagine that my shoes or my coat give me away. Still, I try to blend in by saying Bonjour, and Au Revoir when I walk in and out of shops. I can figure out the French well enough to buy groceries so far. And we have a coffee maker here, though I have been drinking just as much (or more) tea over the last month, and dare I say that I even like it!
(And just to put your minds at ease, I had a lovely dinner anyway; a French-bacon and potato "scramble" with garlic and cream, topped with melted cheese and Creme Fraise (a sour cream like substance) and of course, a little French red wine. I may become something a cook after all.
Arriving in France
Upon arriving in Paris, I was so happy to be met by friends and English speakers!! We went to the catacombs in the afternoon, see the new link. It was pretty much creepy all the way around. But Paris is beautiful in the spring, I didn't really even need a coat. We walked to a park and up this beautiful little street which had an early building of a famous architect at the end. The building itself isn't famous, but with two "architecture boys" (as Dez and Christina like to call them) we were kept well informed about what we were looking at and entertained by the sheer number of pictures they take of all the buildings around here. It gives a person new eyes when looking at things, following these guys around. It was also nice to feel like I recognized something. I went with Mark and Dez (Christina's friends from Bozeman) to the Champs-Elysees and upon seeing the Arc de Triomphe at the end, I felt happy to be somewhere I have a memory of. Plus, it's Paris. Maybe not my favorite city in the world, but a beautiful one, just entering springtime.
We drove across France the next day, five people and 10 bags, just barely fitting in the tiny tiny car that Jed and Christina rented from the grocery store. France gets more beautiful the farther south you go, and it is nice weather. If not sunny, at least it isn't snowy. It rains every couple or hours, but I can handle that. I have been here in the chalet by myself for the last couple of days (everyone else went to Barcelona, which I decided to forego for now in order to rest and put my mind back together.
This picture was taken from the front porch of the chalet. It is Millau as seen from our front door. I feel like I am walking in the picture I had on my computer desktop. If I walk just down the driveway, I can see the bridge also. It's pretty much amazing.
Pictures
These are a few pictures, finally. My new backpack. It looks a little sad in this picture, but it's great. Also, me and Tonya, Dana's friend & fellow English teacher. Her boyfriend Kostya and Dana are there too, at the party we were at on the Saturday before I left. And me, on my first night in Moscow (and in Russia) standing in front of St. Basil's church. That was a good thing about Moscow, and an impressive first night there (though freezing, freezing, freezing...) Also seen, Dana and me in front of a giant statue of Lenin and me in front of Patriot's Park, which is in The Master and Margarita, one of my favorite books by the Russian writer Mikhail Bulgakov.
19.2.07
Russian Impressions...
Kostya told me the other night, that Moscow is not Russia, and that St. Petersburg is also not Russia. Well, I didn't go to St. Petersburg, but I am glad that a Russian told me that Moscow is not Russia because I didn't like Moscow. Not even a little bit. It is huge, gray, dirty, chaotic, covered in dirty slush and snow, wet, and cold. The only thing I liked about it was the Metro system, which is the only efficient think I saw in Russia in two and a half weeks, and even that a series of escalators and stairs, crowded train cars (some with fake wood paneling) and hallways, and just far too many people. How much of this has to do with the weather, probably a lot, but I am not sure that I would like it more in the summer time. And it is because of this, this intense dislike of Moscow, that I had such a good time in Russia.
My Russia trip was not a tourist trip. I was a visitor, staying with a friend, meeting her friends, attending her classes, living a very short Russian life in provincial Russia. I only spent a couple of days in Moscow total, and did see the major Moscow sights: the Kremlin and Red Square. We attempted to see some other stuff, but somehow time just gets away from you there. We stayed up late talking, discussing what we saw the essential Russian problem and attempting to think of ways to fix it. We made broad generalizations based of the details of our problems there, trying to define Russia and what appears to be her broken system. We drank a lot of tea, which I think I can say that I like now, and almost as much coffee, which was consumed while sitting in cafes because Russia hasn't grasped the concept of coffee to go yet.
I attended two of Dana's classes and helped to 'teach' them, which means that I particpated in the discussion of english vocabulary and the differences between Russian and American culture. We also had an American Club meeting, something Dana does weekly for any students that want extra practice speaking English.
I attended two parties with Dana's friends, one in Tula and one Moscow the night before I left. These parties entail much food and much vodka, and on Saturday I found out that Russia also has an equivalent of box wine. Most of the people at these parties do not speak English, so I was left to Dana's translating, her friend Tonya, who speaks excellent English and teaches at the University that Dana works at, my very few words, and after much vodka, Tonya's boyfriend Kostya would begin speaking to me in English. It was broken, but he tried and I think that we mostly understood each other. Incidentally, Kostya is the most animated Russian I met. He used voices and large arm movements every time he told a story, and each was usually followed by his laughter.
In Moscow, the people seem brooding and morose, and little wonder with how crowded it is. People crowd one another, pushing through lines and pushing you aside if you let them. However, once you know someone, it seems that the hospitality is overwhelming. They give you directions, help you problems or questions, use what little english they have, feed you, offer you more, make toasts to you, offer you tea and vodka etc. I am very grateful to Tonya for taking time from a busy schedule to help us with my registration and also to invite us to Moscow for her best friend's birthday party on my last night there, where we also spent the night. We weren't sent away until we had a good breakfast, tea, and they made us sit for a moment and 'have one for the road' (a drink of white wine) which is a tradition in Russia. Then, Tonya's friend Anya's boyfriend walked us to the transportation spot and hailed and then paid for our cab to the metro so we could get to the airport. I never even got his name.
My Russia trip was not a tourist trip. I was a visitor, staying with a friend, meeting her friends, attending her classes, living a very short Russian life in provincial Russia. I only spent a couple of days in Moscow total, and did see the major Moscow sights: the Kremlin and Red Square. We attempted to see some other stuff, but somehow time just gets away from you there. We stayed up late talking, discussing what we saw the essential Russian problem and attempting to think of ways to fix it. We made broad generalizations based of the details of our problems there, trying to define Russia and what appears to be her broken system. We drank a lot of tea, which I think I can say that I like now, and almost as much coffee, which was consumed while sitting in cafes because Russia hasn't grasped the concept of coffee to go yet.
I attended two of Dana's classes and helped to 'teach' them, which means that I particpated in the discussion of english vocabulary and the differences between Russian and American culture. We also had an American Club meeting, something Dana does weekly for any students that want extra practice speaking English.
I attended two parties with Dana's friends, one in Tula and one Moscow the night before I left. These parties entail much food and much vodka, and on Saturday I found out that Russia also has an equivalent of box wine. Most of the people at these parties do not speak English, so I was left to Dana's translating, her friend Tonya, who speaks excellent English and teaches at the University that Dana works at, my very few words, and after much vodka, Tonya's boyfriend Kostya would begin speaking to me in English. It was broken, but he tried and I think that we mostly understood each other. Incidentally, Kostya is the most animated Russian I met. He used voices and large arm movements every time he told a story, and each was usually followed by his laughter.
In Moscow, the people seem brooding and morose, and little wonder with how crowded it is. People crowd one another, pushing through lines and pushing you aside if you let them. However, once you know someone, it seems that the hospitality is overwhelming. They give you directions, help you problems or questions, use what little english they have, feed you, offer you more, make toasts to you, offer you tea and vodka etc. I am very grateful to Tonya for taking time from a busy schedule to help us with my registration and also to invite us to Moscow for her best friend's birthday party on my last night there, where we also spent the night. We weren't sent away until we had a good breakfast, tea, and they made us sit for a moment and 'have one for the road' (a drink of white wine) which is a tradition in Russia. Then, Tonya's friend Anya's boyfriend walked us to the transportation spot and hailed and then paid for our cab to the metro so we could get to the airport. I never even got his name.
11.2.07
Yesterday, Today...
Yesterday was my day of Russian culture. Dead Lenin, check. Kremlin, check. St.Basil's cathedral, check. Exhausted, we finished the day off with a meal at the Yalki Palki and then a beer at a pub on the main tourist street, Arbat. Back to russian life as usual this week, and I think I prefer it; small town life in the provinces is much easier to deal with than the crazy speed of Moscow. Small town, of course, is near 600 million people. More later, but all is well and the food is still great. I am going to buy a Russian cookbook now, and all who really know me well know that I don't really cook. But I think Russian food has inspired me. Who knew?
There are, however, many police in the metro stations today. We aren't sure why, but suspect it has something to do with the new registration law, and it makes us nervous. We are totally legal at this point, but it seems that it doesn't always help here to have everything in order. And you may not know it, but the police aren't the most trustworthy group to deal with. Dana won't even ask for directions from them on the streets...imagine then how we felt when we were told to go there for help with registration...
There are, however, many police in the metro stations today. We aren't sure why, but suspect it has something to do with the new registration law, and it makes us nervous. We are totally legal at this point, but it seems that it doesn't always help here to have everything in order. And you may not know it, but the police aren't the most trustworthy group to deal with. Dana won't even ask for directions from them on the streets...imagine then how we felt when we were told to go there for help with registration...
I was not deported, and somehow everything has worked out...
I have only been in Russia for six days and I have spent five of those day afraid of being deported. You see, when you come to Russia, you must register with the Russian government within three days so that they can track your whereabouts. Well, I am going on day seven, and still no registration. But it's not like we haven't tried...we go one place, they tell us to go somewhere else, and they tell us to wait before they tell us to go somewhere else. Today, I finally got to the point that it has been so much trouble I would buy another ticket to leave early, but alas, neither can I leave this country without first being registered. This is a really long story, which really includes far too many police stations and too many overly made-up women saying No. I have never been so rejected in my life; I mean, I've been rejected, but never so often in so little time and over and over again. And the thing is, I can't even take it personally, because there is this new Russian law that we really don't understand. The real problem is that none of the Russian officials or tourist agencies understand it either, and they are passing us around from person to person, from office to office, from agency to agency in order to avoid responsibility for fixing my problem, even though they created in the first place.
I have learned a few words, particularly 'spasiba' which means thank you. At the end of the day when the man helping us (the only man, incidentally-i don't know what this means since every person who rejected us was a woman) after Dana had translated what he said, I stopped before I left and called to him through his office door, Spasiba, Spasiba. He looked up and laughed, nodding. (I think he really wanted to help us.) Dana laughed also, and then said to him, "This is her only Russian word so she wanted to use it, but she is very, very grateful." And I am.
I could go on and on, trying to explain the days and hours spent worrying and working on this; I could try and count the number of people that we have tried to talk to (9 in 5 days) but I don't want to bore you with the details. And actually, it is a fascinating story filled with the philosophy of and our personal theories surrounding the Russian bureaucratic system, but it is a long, varied, complicated story. Suffice it to say, once I am officially 'in' this country I will have a truly Russian story under my belt. And the story ends with me, after having so much trouble with a simple problem, ready to give the Russian government anything they want...copies of my passport, my visa, my customs card...my picture! my money! my books! Anything anything anything to get them to register me and then leave me alone until I leave the country; and it is in this moment, this moment of utter desperation, ready to do anything to be left alone, that I realize the power of a police state.
The rest of my Russian experience has been very Russian as well. I have eaten much Russian food, ridden on all three of kinds of public transportation used here in the provinces, including the marshuke (a mini-van that you ride in with abut 14 other people) bought food and gloves and an orange hat at the outside market...each day and experience is truly a story in itself. At the market, for example, they sell shoes, sweaters, socks, and underwear. And can I tell you, it is snowing. It is below zero. I cannot imagine buying a bra outside in the middle of rural Russina. When I commented on this to Dana, she said, yeah, I realized that I was really comfortable living here when I tried on a bra at one of the markets last year. I do not know how this works, and I did not ask for details, but I guess it just goes to prove that acclimation to any situation is possible.
I have learned a few words, particularly 'spasiba' which means thank you. At the end of the day when the man helping us (the only man, incidentally-i don't know what this means since every person who rejected us was a woman) after Dana had translated what he said, I stopped before I left and called to him through his office door, Spasiba, Spasiba. He looked up and laughed, nodding. (I think he really wanted to help us.) Dana laughed also, and then said to him, "This is her only Russian word so she wanted to use it, but she is very, very grateful." And I am.
I could go on and on, trying to explain the days and hours spent worrying and working on this; I could try and count the number of people that we have tried to talk to (9 in 5 days) but I don't want to bore you with the details. And actually, it is a fascinating story filled with the philosophy of and our personal theories surrounding the Russian bureaucratic system, but it is a long, varied, complicated story. Suffice it to say, once I am officially 'in' this country I will have a truly Russian story under my belt. And the story ends with me, after having so much trouble with a simple problem, ready to give the Russian government anything they want...copies of my passport, my visa, my customs card...my picture! my money! my books! Anything anything anything to get them to register me and then leave me alone until I leave the country; and it is in this moment, this moment of utter desperation, ready to do anything to be left alone, that I realize the power of a police state.
The rest of my Russian experience has been very Russian as well. I have eaten much Russian food, ridden on all three of kinds of public transportation used here in the provinces, including the marshuke (a mini-van that you ride in with abut 14 other people) bought food and gloves and an orange hat at the outside market...each day and experience is truly a story in itself. At the market, for example, they sell shoes, sweaters, socks, and underwear. And can I tell you, it is snowing. It is below zero. I cannot imagine buying a bra outside in the middle of rural Russina. When I commented on this to Dana, she said, yeah, I realized that I was really comfortable living here when I tried on a bra at one of the markets last year. I do not know how this works, and I did not ask for details, but I guess it just goes to prove that acclimation to any situation is possible.
Denver, really?
I will not repeat it here due to length, but there is a Chinese folk tale about a man and his son and their horse and a broken leg...well, it's a long story. But the moral of the story is that sometimes when something happens it may seem like it is bad, but really it is good. And when it looks good, it may be bad. I guess this sounds like the moral of the story is that you cannot take anything at face value, or that you should always be optimistic, unless something good happens, then maybe negative is ok. Or perhaps it is about contradiction, how it exists and we should just accept that. Really, the story is about a horse, but in any case, disregarding the horse, I have learned in the last five days that all these things apply to Russia.
My story is about a lost bag. A beautiful blue bag, filled with all kinds of essential items, all picked out meticulously to meet my needs on this particular trip. But with that bag, I would have missed my flight, not fit on the first marshuke ride to Tula (where Dana teaches and lives) and would have altogether a harder time getting around, as it weighs far more than twice the one I now carry. So I guess my horse with a broken leg has turned out in my favor after all. I can only hope that if the bag has made it all the Denver in the last two weeks, it will make it back home unharmed.
Perhaps the most important thing a person needs when attempting to survive in a police state is optimism. I have never considered myself to be an optimist; a cynic at best. However, I have found myself saying things like, 'maybe today' or 'it's bound to work out somehow,' over and over here. Weather or not I believe these things when I say them, is evern unknown to myself. But it is a mark of the country's effect on me that I say them.
I do however love the food.
My story is about a lost bag. A beautiful blue bag, filled with all kinds of essential items, all picked out meticulously to meet my needs on this particular trip. But with that bag, I would have missed my flight, not fit on the first marshuke ride to Tula (where Dana teaches and lives) and would have altogether a harder time getting around, as it weighs far more than twice the one I now carry. So I guess my horse with a broken leg has turned out in my favor after all. I can only hope that if the bag has made it all the Denver in the last two weeks, it will make it back home unharmed.
Perhaps the most important thing a person needs when attempting to survive in a police state is optimism. I have never considered myself to be an optimist; a cynic at best. However, I have found myself saying things like, 'maybe today' or 'it's bound to work out somehow,' over and over here. Weather or not I believe these things when I say them, is evern unknown to myself. But it is a mark of the country's effect on me that I say them.
I do however love the food.
30.1.07
120 Euro
I did some math yesterday, and realized that the lost bag contained almost $1000 worth of stuff. Most of it collected over time, even years, but I was awestruck nonetheless. I am, however, not feeling very upset about it. I have put myself back together for about €120 and not only is my bag much lighter, but I got to buy a new bag (price included in the 120 spent) and I love to buy new bags. As soon as I can update my blog using my own computer, I will post a picture of it, it's pretty.
I saw a lot of the major sights of Berlin on foot yesterday and today, I ate noodles out of a cardboard box, and spent more time out after dark during the last 4 days than I have in ages. Berlin after dark, in this district anyway, isn't scary or crazy, and not really any more cold than during the day. All the people are so nice and helpful, and it is so pretty here, though prettier I am sure in spring and summer when all the trees and parks are growing and green. The only thing I don't like about Belin so far is that I don't know any German (except the word for coffee, koffe, which was as easy to pick up as it is essential to my daily routine). I wish knew even basic words. Instead I rely on the impressive people all over the city who switch to English for me as soon as they realize, or I tell them, that I speak no German. One of the hostel guys shamed me the other day as he carried on three simultaneous conversations in different languages. He was using German, English, and Spanish, and though I could tell that he isn't 100% fluent in Spanish, he is much better than I am, and was switching between all three to boot. Ahhh, someday that would be a talent to have.
I leave for Russia tomorrow, and am looking foward to having company again, though the last two days alone have really helped me to regain my center and focus on this journey. I am also reading "What should I do with my Life" by Po Bronson, a book my dad bought me when I graduated college, but never had the time or motivation to finish reading then. Dana lent it to me a few days ago, and I am halfway through it. I am not sure it is helping me to come to a decision, but I think the stories will be in the back of my head when it comes time to decide, if that time ever comes I suppose, which i imagine it must at some point.
I am freezing and hungry, so off I go for dinner. I hope this finds everyone well.
I saw a lot of the major sights of Berlin on foot yesterday and today, I ate noodles out of a cardboard box, and spent more time out after dark during the last 4 days than I have in ages. Berlin after dark, in this district anyway, isn't scary or crazy, and not really any more cold than during the day. All the people are so nice and helpful, and it is so pretty here, though prettier I am sure in spring and summer when all the trees and parks are growing and green. The only thing I don't like about Belin so far is that I don't know any German (except the word for coffee, koffe, which was as easy to pick up as it is essential to my daily routine). I wish knew even basic words. Instead I rely on the impressive people all over the city who switch to English for me as soon as they realize, or I tell them, that I speak no German. One of the hostel guys shamed me the other day as he carried on three simultaneous conversations in different languages. He was using German, English, and Spanish, and though I could tell that he isn't 100% fluent in Spanish, he is much better than I am, and was switching between all three to boot. Ahhh, someday that would be a talent to have.
I leave for Russia tomorrow, and am looking foward to having company again, though the last two days alone have really helped me to regain my center and focus on this journey. I am also reading "What should I do with my Life" by Po Bronson, a book my dad bought me when I graduated college, but never had the time or motivation to finish reading then. Dana lent it to me a few days ago, and I am halfway through it. I am not sure it is helping me to come to a decision, but I think the stories will be in the back of my head when it comes time to decide, if that time ever comes I suppose, which i imagine it must at some point.
I am freezing and hungry, so off I go for dinner. I hope this finds everyone well.
29.1.07
Two days in Berlin
Well, Dana and I spent a good day in Berlin. The first night I got in we stayed up until arund 5:00 am when it was all said and done. I borrowed her shampoo and washed my hair, and then we walked around for an hour trying to find a place to have a drink. We ended up at this Spanish restaurant for a couple of hours, because they just stay open if you are still there. When we finally left, they gave us a ticket to come back the next day and have a free meal, 2 for the price of 1. So we did that; we had steak and sangria. We decided that all this time in the El Dorado was actually our Barcelona vacation together. We went back there later that night and drank beer and free sambuca until around 3:00am. Then we went back to the hostel for some sleep before Dana's 10:00 am flight back to Moscow. Problem: we stayed out too late, got up too late, and then moved to slow (a problem soon to remedied). Once we got to the train station, we realized that we should have checked the train times because the fast train had been cancelled and the 50 minute train would arrive at the airport just before her check-in was closing. Another close call. The metro stops just outside the airport a little ways, so we jumped off and suddenly, though I swore I would never do it again, I was running to catch a plane. Well, Dana's plane, but I had one of her bags. Anyway, she just barely made it, which was awesome becuase her conference started last night, and had she missed the plane she wouldn't be there until sometime today, which is too late.
I came back to our neighborhood, had lunch, and then slept during the afternoon. I was so tired from the last 4 days, it just had to happen. I was then overly awake last night and stayed up until 2 reading. But today is a new day, I am drinking black coffee, finishing my email, and then I am off to sight see a little this afternoon. Tomorrow I will try and take the 4 hour walking tour my sister recommended, and Wednesday I head back to the airport to catch my flight to Moscow. I will, however, be on the 7:35 metro in order to avoid the panicked running.
I came back to our neighborhood, had lunch, and then slept during the afternoon. I was so tired from the last 4 days, it just had to happen. I was then overly awake last night and stayed up until 2 reading. But today is a new day, I am drinking black coffee, finishing my email, and then I am off to sight see a little this afternoon. Tomorrow I will try and take the 4 hour walking tour my sister recommended, and Wednesday I head back to the airport to catch my flight to Moscow. I will, however, be on the 7:35 metro in order to avoid the panicked running.
28.1.07
To Berlin
Well, i made it.
with all the friends and familz i have had abroad over the years, i have read manz emails typed on foriegn keyboards, and heard the same explanation apologiying for mistakes: it's the keyboard. well, i make a lot mistakes because i often type too fast to notice them, but let me tell you, besides navigating these sites in german, which i am doing mostlz by color and memory, since i have no german skills, these keyboards are just different enough to be totally annoying. so i apologize about the bad spelling and other mistakes. it's the keyboard.
in berlin, it was a long couple of days. i have discovered that i was well prepared with my packing: warm socks, hat and gloves, shampoo good (after two days on an airplane and running through airports, shampoo is a must); sink stopper for washing, towel and sleeping bag for cheaper hostel rates. i imagine that the list goes on and on, however i can't say for sure because i am reciting it from memory. i made it to berlin (just barely) but my bag didn't. after arriving in madrid 2 1/2 hours later due to snow in philadelphia, i just barely missed my flight to barcelona. the nice people at us airways reallz helped me out by getting me a ticket with a different airline to take a shuttle leaving every half an hour to barcelona from madrid, but first i had to spend a hour waiting to see if they had my backpack. no luck, so another half an hour to make a claim so it can be sent to me when they track it down. then i had to take the green bus to terminal 4 where i spent an hour standing in lines and talking to 7 different people in order to find where i was supposed to check in. what you need to know about this is that it took me an hour to get 5 minutes across the airport. my checkin center was in the back, down an unmarked hallway, and i suppose i am just no good at understanding directions in the broken english, half spanish that i was communicating in. anyway, by the time i got on that flight i realized that i would have about 5 minutes for checkin for my flight to berlin after arrival. this is not good, because if you miss an easyjet flight, that's it. no refund, no helpful staff finding you another flight, and besides that dana would be at the airport at 10:30 at night waiting for me. i ran. i ran, and since i had no luggage to check i threw myself, a good 5 minutes late for the final checkin time, on the mercy of the two women at the counter. i was given two steely glares, a reprimand for not being more than 40 minutes early for mý flight, and somehow miraculously a boarding pass. i was so stressed out at this point, not fully believeing that i would actually make it, that i wanted to cry, but i could only laugh at how close i had come and that i had actually made it. upon arrival, i looked around and couldnät find dana, but i tried not to panic as everything else had worked that day. i looked around, got some cash from the atm and was suddenlz attacked by the blonde dana girl i know and love, wearing a verz long, very russian winter coat.
we stayed up until 4:00am drinking beer.
with all the friends and familz i have had abroad over the years, i have read manz emails typed on foriegn keyboards, and heard the same explanation apologiying for mistakes: it's the keyboard. well, i make a lot mistakes because i often type too fast to notice them, but let me tell you, besides navigating these sites in german, which i am doing mostlz by color and memory, since i have no german skills, these keyboards are just different enough to be totally annoying. so i apologize about the bad spelling and other mistakes. it's the keyboard.
in berlin, it was a long couple of days. i have discovered that i was well prepared with my packing: warm socks, hat and gloves, shampoo good (after two days on an airplane and running through airports, shampoo is a must); sink stopper for washing, towel and sleeping bag for cheaper hostel rates. i imagine that the list goes on and on, however i can't say for sure because i am reciting it from memory. i made it to berlin (just barely) but my bag didn't. after arriving in madrid 2 1/2 hours later due to snow in philadelphia, i just barely missed my flight to barcelona. the nice people at us airways reallz helped me out by getting me a ticket with a different airline to take a shuttle leaving every half an hour to barcelona from madrid, but first i had to spend a hour waiting to see if they had my backpack. no luck, so another half an hour to make a claim so it can be sent to me when they track it down. then i had to take the green bus to terminal 4 where i spent an hour standing in lines and talking to 7 different people in order to find where i was supposed to check in. what you need to know about this is that it took me an hour to get 5 minutes across the airport. my checkin center was in the back, down an unmarked hallway, and i suppose i am just no good at understanding directions in the broken english, half spanish that i was communicating in. anyway, by the time i got on that flight i realized that i would have about 5 minutes for checkin for my flight to berlin after arrival. this is not good, because if you miss an easyjet flight, that's it. no refund, no helpful staff finding you another flight, and besides that dana would be at the airport at 10:30 at night waiting for me. i ran. i ran, and since i had no luggage to check i threw myself, a good 5 minutes late for the final checkin time, on the mercy of the two women at the counter. i was given two steely glares, a reprimand for not being more than 40 minutes early for mý flight, and somehow miraculously a boarding pass. i was so stressed out at this point, not fully believeing that i would actually make it, that i wanted to cry, but i could only laugh at how close i had come and that i had actually made it. upon arrival, i looked around and couldnät find dana, but i tried not to panic as everything else had worked that day. i looked around, got some cash from the atm and was suddenlz attacked by the blonde dana girl i know and love, wearing a verz long, very russian winter coat.
we stayed up until 4:00am drinking beer.
19.1.07
the front cover
In the Log of Human Misery
by Greg Keeler
Is irony something beyond us-in the mind
of a fish (if fish have minds), in the way a dog
cocks its head or a cat looks behind
itself when it knows nothing's there? In the log
of human misery, the fates always provide
these illustrations: man bites dog, fish hook
hooks fisherman, soldier gives birth, bride
ditches wedding, universe implodes. Look
behind every tragedy and you're bound to find
a joke. In some cosmic emergency room,
the dog, the fisherman, the soldier, the bride all wind
up getting healed to the sound of laughter. And soon
enough, the universe is expanding again,
blowing off the fatal tragedies like Zen.
by Greg Keeler
Is irony something beyond us-in the mind
of a fish (if fish have minds), in the way a dog
cocks its head or a cat looks behind
itself when it knows nothing's there? In the log
of human misery, the fates always provide
these illustrations: man bites dog, fish hook
hooks fisherman, soldier gives birth, bride
ditches wedding, universe implodes. Look
behind every tragedy and you're bound to find
a joke. In some cosmic emergency room,
the dog, the fisherman, the soldier, the bride all wind
up getting healed to the sound of laughter. And soon
enough, the universe is expanding again,
blowing off the fatal tragedies like Zen.
8.1.07
Daily
It's late and my bags are half-packed. Actually, they aren't packed at all; I have stacks of things laying about, sorted through and needing to be further sorted and then pared down into what actually goes. I am getting rid of many, many things and the rest is packed into Rubbermade bins, which are all various shades of purple. I am not really sure how that happened; I don't much care for purple.
My plans seem to be changing daily, and every once in a while the half-thought, "what the hell am I thinking?" begins to creep into my mind. I should have done some better planning, saved some more money, decided something concrete. But I don't feel any real fear yet, only the excitement about the vague idea of what I will be making my life into. (The fear will come, when I am alone in a foreign airport and beginning to care that I don't speak the local language). Perhaps I have idealized it a little bit. It would be hard not to, I think, when my plans really boil down to moving to the south of France. It sounds ideal. But more than anything else, I want my life to match the picture I have of what it should be. I might fail miserably, have a terrible time, and run out of money just a few months in; I might. But I have failed before, and I figure if it's going to happen again, it may as well be in France. I am ready to be doing something I have been wanting to do since I was sitting in a little sandwich shop in the middle of rural Spain, already in the middle of traveling and writing down future travel plans on a napkin: traveling again.
My plans seem to be changing daily, and every once in a while the half-thought, "what the hell am I thinking?" begins to creep into my mind. I should have done some better planning, saved some more money, decided something concrete. But I don't feel any real fear yet, only the excitement about the vague idea of what I will be making my life into. (The fear will come, when I am alone in a foreign airport and beginning to care that I don't speak the local language). Perhaps I have idealized it a little bit. It would be hard not to, I think, when my plans really boil down to moving to the south of France. It sounds ideal. But more than anything else, I want my life to match the picture I have of what it should be. I might fail miserably, have a terrible time, and run out of money just a few months in; I might. But I have failed before, and I figure if it's going to happen again, it may as well be in France. I am ready to be doing something I have been wanting to do since I was sitting in a little sandwich shop in the middle of rural Spain, already in the middle of traveling and writing down future travel plans on a napkin: traveling again.
4.1.07
Barcelona
I am moving to France. I never wanted to go to France, or learn French, or speak French, or listen to French on any kind of regular basis. To me, French is a slurred language of smashed sounds, not the most romantic language in the world. However, I find myself on my way to France, and not only the most excited I have been in ages, but perhaps the most excited I have ever been.
First things first though, I am flying into Barcelona; I am returning to Barcelona. After spending a month in Spain six years ago, one among twenty two countries visited, Barcelona remains my favorite city. And the thought of returning somewhere loved is always something to be excited about. Then I meet Dana in Moscow for at least two weeks in Russia. Russia in January may not be the smartest plan I have ever made, but I can't wait to go. I learned the Cyrillic alphabet last year, and practicing my few words of Russian, attempting to read signs, and even perhaps a Russian aerobics class, I am most excited about visiting Dana.
First things first though, I am flying into Barcelona; I am returning to Barcelona. After spending a month in Spain six years ago, one among twenty two countries visited, Barcelona remains my favorite city. And the thought of returning somewhere loved is always something to be excited about. Then I meet Dana in Moscow for at least two weeks in Russia. Russia in January may not be the smartest plan I have ever made, but I can't wait to go. I learned the Cyrillic alphabet last year, and practicing my few words of Russian, attempting to read signs, and even perhaps a Russian aerobics class, I am most excited about visiting Dana.
Life is Elsewhere
I've heard it said, seriously and in jest, a thousand times over: the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. Well, more often than not reaching the other side does not mean greener pastures, but the trip to find it is no less worth while. I am moving to France, and I don't know what I will find there, but when I think about what I want my life to be, this is it. Living abroad, traveling more, learning a few words from as many languages as possible...